post Camino Blues

I've noticed lately that, despite being productive around the garden, that I'm feeling wasted. I reason that it's a post Camino let down. After putting down so many kilometres and encountering so many new villages and vistas, it's back to the farm. I love it here, but it's too familiar, too same same.

This morning I searched about info on "post Camino Blues" and after wading past semi commercial schemes I found one by a writer. The typical thing, highly polished, almost poetic writing, but predictable. I did find one passage, a quote from a Pilgrim who had obviously come to terms with these feelings:- 

"I think the real way to move forward in your life is to make sure that you're being true to yourself. What do you have to offer the world? What are your gifts? Are you using them? I think another thing that I realized on the Camino is that we all have limitless potential but if you don't actualize your gift you'll spend the rest of your life in silent desperation longing to return to a place where you felt free to think and be yourself." -Eduardo P.

Well, thanks Eduardo P. As much as I dislike admitting it, "silent desperation", i guess that's a little how I feel. I'm also impatient and sensitive, but coming off the realisation that I, and my body, are capable of amazing things, I feel driven for a repeat adventure. 

I have planned something big and new for later this month, but at the moment that feels like like in the sky and too far off. But the reason this is wearing me away particularly severely at the moment is that I'm full of rich foods, off my frugal diet and although I'm busy landscaping in a major garden overhaul, it's not exercise, not meditative, it's just work. It's rewarding, but it's getting a little boring. I need to busy out! 

My typical is to busy myself tidying and preparing before motoring of to my chosen destination and arriving feeling excited, but a little spent. I get into my activity, but with a half day spent getting to the start line, I'm a little flat on the idea. 

I think what I need is a mock or preparatory adventure to the big one I plan later in the month. The aspect in most doubtful about are the camping and meal prep aspects. So I think that an exercise in gathering the equipment and making a coffee and meal, even sleeping out, and the frames of waking up in a novel location, may be what is needed. Something of a shake up?!